Tender Moments

April, 2015

It’s the 16th and Scott is about to drive me to surgery. We pause for a looooong hug. Thoughts race through my mind; from gratitude for his constant loving support, to the knowledge that this IS surgery and anything could happen. It can evoke “worst case scenarios” in my thinking. Then I realize that anything can happen in any moment that can drastically change the trajectory of one’s life. Chances are this won’t be it. And either way, I am so incredibly blessed to have the love of my life right here with me, as well as the love from so many dear friends and family. Whatever the outcome is, I am grateful for the life that I’ve been given. 

There have also been many moments where I’ve realized how much pressure there is on Scott. He is the sweetest, most loving spouse I could ever hope for, and he does not have nearly the support system that I have developed over the years. I’ve checked in with him frequently to see how he’s doing, and he offers is usual response of, “I’m fine”. Though I know he’s nervous, scared, worried, etc. I am acutely aware that in any situation where a person undergoes an important and difficult event, it is usually the loving partner that is making sure everything is running smoothly, while the patient gets all of the support.