The Adventure Begins

April, 2015

I have realized over the past few days that I really do see this as a grand adventure. I could be frightened (and certainly a part of me is), and resistive, and wishing I didn’t have this imposition happening in my life. Or, I could greet the upcoming events as the adventure that is unfolding. I have learned over the years to recognizing that what is, IS. And, resisting it only creates more suffering. So, as I’ve contemplated the decision to go ahead with this surgery, I’ve also allowed myself to focus my curiosity;

“What will the pain really be like?”I Imagine that I have the skills to cope even if it’s extreme. “What will movement be like?” Although I’ve practiced a bit with my crutches, not nearly what I had planned on months ago. I’m also curious how my Feldenkrais training will allow me to work with visualizing healthy movement even if I can’t bear weight through my right leg. I suspect my training will also allow me to discover ways of achieving range of motion that may not be a typical part of a standard physical therapy regime. There’s actually lots to look forward to in experiencing what so many other people go through. I am grateful to have the capacity to view it this way…and hopeful that when I’m in the midst of the recovery I can maintain this perspective.